Last day of school

It's quite sad.

I have always wanted this day to come, but I guess not so much anymore.

I want to leave all the homework and studies behind. But my friends I do not wish to leave.

I know I will see most of them soon or maybe in a couple of years, but it is not the same.

Having them around, going through the same ordeal. These are the moments in life that I do not wish to leave behind. If I could, I would replay the last day of classes and the last day of year 12 over and over and over again. And I'd still feel the sadness and sorrows and excitement I shared with my 200+ cohort of year 12s.

Class of 2010, Brentwood Secondary College. I'm proud of all of you and I'm so glad that I got to share the memories and feelings throughout the year, Forever will you guys be remembered..

Blah!

I'd love to say "I Love You" but if I'm going to get in the way of things, perhaps it's better off if I didn't say those three words, even if it were to be successful. If things worked out I wouldn't mind, but how can we predict the future? That something around the corner we will never know, just like how my hearts knocking on the doorsteps of yours, but I do not know whats inside. For now I will take 3 steps back, and focus on the little things, or perhaps my studies.

Believe

Show me a sign, anything, I don't care what it may be, just give me a sign to believe in..

Waste of time

Feels like blogging is a waste of time, a time to waste the minutes and seconds that we all treasure, or even in certain circumstances, hate it. But then again, these moments in life let me reflect and evaluate my circumstances. The times that I day dream about a better day, or about the things that might happen later in life, these are the times which you will find the real me.

The inner thoughts which are kept so deep inside me are released and you soon come to realise, that I'm not that strong, I'm not that independent. Because the feelings deep down are something meaningful and thought out carefully. I don't blog because I have to, I blog because I can't contain this jar full of thoughts and dreams. So in the end, its a win win situation, you learn about me, I escape from the pressures that I face both internally and externally.

Thank You.

Damn It

God Damn, I miss that feeling.

That just makes me want to break through the ceiling, touch the sky as my heart flies.

And the days that just make it hard to say good bye.

Its a part of me thats missing, not the hugging or the kissing,

Thats not important to me, I just want to live a life full of simple melodies,

Played by a beautiful symphony, No more feelings of melancholy.

Wear a smile on my dial, that doesn't stay just for a while,

Happiness following me for more than a mile, fly to the moon and back,

You're hearts the moon, and I'm a rocket ship flying and thats a fact.

Mathematics

Isn't it 1 + 1 = 2 ?

If this be the case, this to be true,

Does it not mean we should take a chance?

Make each other's heart sing with joy,

And the urge to just dance,

In awe and in harmony.

Its a wild world

I'm not sure how I feel today. I really don't it's strange. I can't put it into words, I can't make a picture out of it, it's totally different and its something new to me. Possibly, it could be the same feeling I felt a while ago, something which made me happy, note, that doesn't mean i'm not happy at this very moment.

I just want to dance, express my emotions in motion. If not, a picture, if only I was Picasso with the mind of Leonardo, and I'd paint you a picture of the greatest things in life. Something meaningful, nothing fruitless. This barricade that I feel, holding me back, its fear. This same old fear has returned to me, I want to run away from it, but it hunts me down like a tiger.

Maybe time will tell, maybe time will be my friend. Its always maybe when the mind is in doubt, a frame of mind that I most certainly dislike. I cannot turn words into actions and actions into success. I want to be an Entrepreneur of your heart, make it bigger and make it full of happiness and joy, my only goal in life. But like all businessmen, I must start small but where do I take the first step? Left? Right? Forward? Backwards? Hopefully not backwards, I've been down that road far too many times, one time too many. It's time to change.

Simple things matter to me,

Like how the rivers meet the open sea,

A new journey into larger space,

And I will not be afraid of the conflict I may face.

The complexity of life is a bore,

And the hustle and bustle make it hard to stand tall,

But I will not concede and stand down,

I will face this world with anything but a frown.

Stand next to me and I'll teach you the meaning of life,

The good, the bad and the daily strifes,

And each time you fall,

I'll make sure I'm the one you will always call.